Theme song for this blog post: This Beautiful Life by Colony House
I’m graduating from college in two weeks.
This both terrifies and excites me… but mostly just terrifies me. I don’t feel as if I am qualified to be a “grown up” yet (whatever that means). I don’t have any job prospects. I’m getting married this summer, but no one is supportive of this decision (except my husband-to-be, obviously). I’m broke, and have accumulated a significant debt from my bachelors degrees. Overall, I just feel this sense of overwhelming doom hanging over me, like as soon as I walk across that stage and get that sheet of paper that I have spent four long years laboring for, that will be it. BOOM. Game over. Roll credits.
I have found myself running to the Word more often during my anxiety attacks or crying fits this last month, but as soon as I close that well-worn leather cover, I forget every promise I just read. I spiral back down the proverbial rabbit hole of fear and anxiety. This mindset has done absolutely nothing but make me into a stress monster. Even worse, it has done nothing to serve God.
One of my favorite humans on this planet once told me that “stress is the enemy to the Christian.” I am beginning to understand what he meant.
One of my favorite books of the Bible is Genesis (there is truly nothing like going back to the beginning, am I right?) One of the main themes of Genesis – or should I say the most important detail – is the Divine storyline. Each of the main characters does something sinful in the eyes of God, and yet God never breaks his promises to them. God promised to multiply Abraham’s decedents (Gen. 22:17). God promised to make a great nation out of Issac’s descendants (Gen. 26:24). God promised that the earth would be blessed through Jacob’s decedents (Gen. 28:14). God uses the sins of each of these men to God’s own advantage, for God makes everything beautiful in his time (Ecc 3:11).